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[08 May 2009|01:15pm] |
i am having a wee bit of legal trouble, y'all.
nothing like a DWI to really inforce the worth in your driving experience.
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[20 Apr 2009|11:34pm] |
here we are, sam and i, on 420. we're incredibly stoned, we keep forgetting what we're watching and sam just announced to me that she "thinks she's going to get a banana baby yogurt dessert. we're all kinds of fucked up. we are totally stoned. incredibly stoned. we told mikey yuck yick doodlyfuck. which is pretty amazing all around. i can't believe how high we ended up getting. i hope we eat some food soon. we haven't been this high in AGES. here, let me try some of this delicious baby food. that's right, sam fucking eats baby food. and it's great. you have no idea how great it can really taste swirling around mah mouf. unst unst unst. i can't write any more. as insane as that may sound.
i wuv you, marijuana.
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[17 Mar 2009|02:28pm] |
here's me updating. i miss old livejournal, when it mattered. you can ask sam, i mean...livejournal really fucking mattered for a good year there or so. but alas, i still love you, livejournal.
things have been so strange lately. sometimes i'm not sure if maybe i'm living someone else's life because nothing seems to make sense. i'm not really complaining though. i'm always confident something great will happen. i think you have to be confident like that. if you're not, you might as well be fucked.
it's saint patrick's day and i'm still five months short of celebrating properly with green beer. on the other hand, kevin did buy green food dye last night and mentioned dyeing some beer so maybe my hopes won't be crashed after all. then again, i can't have said beer in public with sam...so consider my hopes dashed and gone.
speaking of sam. it's almost spring time and soon we'll be going to boone again, our home away from home..even though we don't actually like many of the people that live there? i'm wearing my bandana that you bought me! it's fabulous and i need to work it into all of my outing attire to really get it worn in. there are only so many months left to properly make it wearable.
i talked to whitney on her birthday. i'm really glad i did. it was nice to hear some sort of love in her voice even though i know she was sitting right next to maggie. it also just bums me out that since i'm not friends with maggie any more, it means i won't get the lovely 21st birthday party that i would've. i'm sure it will just be an awful 21st, really. sam will make it great but i guarantee it will be me and sam and i'll run to the store a couple of times so we can drink straight through til morning. nothing is more fun than drinking with sam, mind you. but if i were still friends with maggie come august i'd have whitney and aditi and everyone there with me. but since i'm NOT friends with maggie, i can count on them not really caring about what i can legally do. i know whitney must still love me, she told me so and whitney doesn't lie. but it's like...maggie was my real bestfriend between the two of them and whit's great and is always there for me but maggie would've gone all out and done me up real big for my 21st and it's just a bummer. the only reason my darling sam can't is...well, i've got one month on her. so i've decided that my new birthday is also september 29th so we can equally celebrate stupidly. so this is an official statement. i'll be able to legally buy and drink come august 26th but my REAL birthday is the same as sam's. making me a libra. hahaha, got it? i just can't wait to isolate ourselves, sam. it'll be me and you and taylor who will watch over us. it will also just be so pleasant to drink when we're at shows, too. god knows we go to so many damn live shows any way. SPEAKING OF LIVE SHOWS, we're really behind on our yearly quota. i think we need to hop on the internet next time we're juntos and do a little search.
hmmm, what else? maggie and i aren't friends - i miss her a lot.. isaac is 6 months! jill got an american eskie puppy name KAI and he's already a keeper. my sleeping partner/boyfriend anthony is crazy. i'm drinking caribou coffee. i'm very dirty. i'm getting a new phone by the end of the week because this is a piece of shit and now i'll get to pay x amount of money a month for a new one. jill and kevin are probably buying my bonnaroo ticket soon, they'll also be paying for all of the gas to TN and back which helps my drug abuse greatly :) - especially since i need to bring so much back to enjoy avec my love! you know who you are ;) ooOOOoo secret lovers! but not secret.
i got to experience calling 911 for anthony the other night. it's a long story, but it was awful. he's on some medicine for his hand because he's all manly and works with them all the time. so his knuckle's all swollen and has fluid in it and blah blah blah carpenter shit. so this shit caused an untimely anxiety attack which i felt like i caused and he blacked out for a bit, did the whole NOT breathing thing, scared the shit out of me...paramedics came and were real cool and saved the day, etc. so after all of that...i'd like everyone to know...if i love you - try your best to not put me in a situation like this or i'll probably faint because it was terrible. the paramedics and anthony's neighbor, tanya all picked on me the whole damn time about how it looked like i was about to faint and how i was white as a ghost. and you know what?! FUCK YOU GUYS. i was terrified. talk about fucking stress. i still feel really responsible for it, if it hadn't been for our little tiff and shouting match i bet none of the 911 shit would've been necessary. i'm not very good at dealing with guilt, so this kind of sucks for me. i know deep down that i might've tipped the scale, but really it wasn't my fault. all the underlying weird shit that i didn't even know about had taken it's toll but i still feel like the worst sleeping partner/girlfriend on the planet earth. i'm even considering baking something. and let's hope my cookies are flat and nasty and tasteless like someone else's i know.....ewsies!
facebook is being really slow right now and i'm wired on all this coffee so it's extra slow. i hope martina helps me with my new phone plan. she was cool and all thugged out. she had really feminine star tattoos of her neck, though. but she had to wear this awful looking bandage over them because they don't allow visible tattoos but i totally saw them. what a cutie.
so now i'm just digging shit up in my memory to write about because i actually don't have anything better to do while i wait for jill to fucking call me back. but i still think it is fucking nuts that i know ryley's roommate and didn't even realize it. i liked my response to you, sam when you said "do you know a guy named tim shenouda?" and i was like "uhmm no. who the fuck is that?" but i do know him! and it won't be 20 degrees this time and we won't be stuck on a mountain too stoned to move! and we'll be free! and if not, we'll just go back to TN and hang out by the sign again. and hopefully we can find a place to fix my ring and have a good ol' time doing whatever we want. we really need to get out of town and i'm so happy that we are. hopefully we can disappear and head to the coast soon. megan and chris fucking move to Massachusetts on fucking may 9th (aww radiohead anniversary!) and i still am so angry. why! why right before the weather gets fabulous! there goes my free place to stay right by the beach. those bastards and their nice cars and fancy new house. it's as if they didn't even consider my addiction to the beach before they set their date to move! but either way, we'll be needing to go down there with taytay and to see them off sometime.
oh my, i am bored.
<3
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[23 Feb 2009|03:01pm] |
i really don't have anything to say.
i had the flu all week.
things are pretty shitty all around.
really shitty.
but then not. things are never shitty with sam.
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[23 Jan 2009|02:27pm] |
two things!
1. ash and mike and i just went and looked at apartments all day long :) we found two places up off glenwood (glenHOOD) that we really enjoyed. plus, they're very cozy and affordable. we had so much fun thouggggh. i hope hilary calls back by the end of the evening.
2. last week i went over to anthony's and we had sex and had this amazing time hanging out. this week, last night actually, i went over there and he drops more news on me. last week i got to find out about him joining up with the army. this week i get to find out about his potential new girlfriend, megan. i prefer to address her as mary and so i will. so i act real cool about it but my BLOOD IS BOILING. without good reason, but it is. i mean, i have no claim on this boy whatsoever. i suppose he's really a man though, he is 25 which is a ridiculous thing to say out loud. so i'm pretty damn upset about it. we've just been having an amazing time together. we've had more fun in the last two times that i've been over than we've had fun since the first couple times i stayed over there. i can't even explain it. we just horsed and dicked around and laughed a lot. it was so goddamn nice to have a normal evening with him. he does make me really happy most times. i treat this kid like shit though, it's ridiculous. it's a fucking bad habit and i wish i could blame someone else for giving it to me. we've never been more sweet to eachother than we were to one another last night and straight through til morning. i had a dream about him and he proposed to me and i laughed at him. he thought it was really funny and brought it up every ten minutes about how in my dreams i wish i were his wifey. he really is so adorable. i've never been so JEALOUS either! i've never been this jealous and he just sat there and lapped it up. i miss him already. i left this morning at about nine am and it was hard to leave that warm bed with him completely asleep all snuggley. i just wish i knew how i felt about all of this. i'm worried over it and my stomach hurts just thinking about it. i asked him that if he were to go with mary and be with her, that maybe he just wouldn't forget about me. he told me he never loved anyone quite as much as me and that he'd always love me. and then i cried a lot about using him as a safety net and not treating him right. i love him. i'm just confused about what's right for me and how he effects what is good for me and what is right for me. he straight told me that he's wanting to settle down and get married in the next five years. that's scary. but strangely appealing? the girly side of me gets all fluttered over it but it's unrealistic. i just don't know any one human being (besides you, sam) that is so good to me and so sweet and loves me and can still put up with me on a daily/weekly basis. last night i made him shave and i sat in the bathroom like a kid on christmas literally just watching him shave. it was the most adorable sweet thing on the planet earth.
i'll finish this later.
ash just called and weeeee arreee approooooved :D
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[14 Jan 2009|09:40pm] |
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"i can't be mad about it because it's character. isn't it? it's who we are. it's where we've been."
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[12 Jan 2009|02:06am] |
it's about damn time something interesting happened to me, i think.
don't be fooled, i live a more interesting life than i could've ever dreamed of or imagined...but things are starting to get a little routine and a little same-old. so i'm definitely thinking that something's about to happen. as far as superstition goes, jillian has me beat..but i think there's something about us voytko's and we just have our quiet calm lapses and then bam, some kind of shit has dropped.
side-subject: the other night sam started raving about how i'm a demon. now, it was probably top ten funny material but i told jill about it and she confirmed that she too had been called a good demon. what can this mean?
but anyway, i can't sleep. i haven't really gone to bed before two am lately. i'm not mad about it or anything...i just hate sitting still. there are a lot of things i COULD be doing right now. and a lot of people that i could/should call and see and talk to and there are always a number of things on my to do list. it is so funny how i manage to have a giant list and i just edit down and go back and edit it on down and i keep making cuts and before i know it! i only have three things that i have to do because i really only fucking like doing the things I like doing. damnit. i hardly think that it's a bad thing. as a matter of fact, i'm pretty happy with it.
i need to remember to take my birth control tomorrow.
i also need to maybe put some contacts in.
but notice i wrote maybe...so i guess my heart's just not that into it.
i also anticipate eating a cabbage roll that sam's mom made.
not to mention getting a latte. i do greatly love lattes lately.
oh dear, my post is over. these delicious little things are kicking in.
lord god, please bless the pharmaceutical companies of this world.
and god bless (hah god?) pierogies and their disregard to phonetics.
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[08 Jan 2009|12:37pm] |
so, as this "winter" progresses i am becoming more and more sad that it is..winter. there is no snow, no fun, and i'm just not having it.
i'd greatly like for it to warm up.
as a matter of fact, i'd like it to be summer all together.
i want to go swimming and i want to go to manchester, tn.
is it time?!
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[28 Dec 2008|03:21am] |
"help, it's not my foot. it's different. it's not mine. help me please! don't type me out, dude! it's not my foot! c'mon man, just c'mon man! but wait, it is my foot. it just looks so different from this angle. i've never seen it from this angle. that's fucking amazing."
sam, gbs and doses alike.
i, however, and feeling inquisitive. i feel like i want to explore the world! i am coherent! but oh! say what you will cruel world, i am of the most divine substance! i am a golden mineral hidden beneath more hidden potential! heed my words, world. i am i am i am here.
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[11 Dec 2008|02:53pm] |
I GOT SECRETS FROM YOU
YOU GOT SECRETS FROM MEEEE
BECAUSE YOU'RE SO WORRIED ABOUT WHAT I'M GOING TO THIIIIIINK
baby i'm worried too.
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[09 Dec 2008|02:02pm] |
sometimes, to be a champ, you have to sacrifice things.
like your lungs.
ilusam&gblove.
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[04 Dec 2008|04:36pm] |
so here are two things i'm buying myself for chrsitmas.
well, not really buying myself. taking money from my grandmother and just using it to buy these things..so really i'm not buying myself anything per say.
and
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[27 Nov 2008|12:18am] |
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i want to see valkyrie SO bad.
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[11 Nov 2008|10:10pm] |
oh word? i fucking counted wrong.
aaabcderq. there we are.
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[21 Oct 2008|11:50am] |
rest in peace, elliott! i love you always.
xo.
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[06 Oct 2008|12:52am] |
dear logan,
i think you should probably call me or text me within the next couple days. it'd be nice. maybe i'll see you at work soon. i greatly enjoyed spending the morning with you cuddling and i'm thinking you should dump your girlfriend and probably date me, and more importantly make love to me. i'd really appreciate it and i can guarantee a damn good time. it doesn't hurt that you are such a ridiculously beautiful male and i can never take my eyes off of you when you're around. not to mention you can do magic tricks and sleight of hand. you're a goddamn babe and if you could just at least be my friend first and foremost before our love affair blooms, i'd love that as well.
hope it's not too much to ask!
love,
callan
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[25 Sep 2008|10:27pm] |
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WHAT THE FUCK.
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[23 Sep 2008|08:01pm] |
mhmhhm mstrkrft
sam in the shower
pbr
the golden years.
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[15 Sep 2008|10:15pm] |
i am an AUNT!
my little nephew, isaac leland myers has finally come into the world!
i even watched most of it! INCREDIBLE.
and horrifying.
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[12 Sep 2008|12:08am] |
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isaac please come out!
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